V speaks in a more professorial tone, “Let me offer a theory for your consideration. In the progression from formlessness to form—spirit to matter—there is a gradual crossover from one to the other—from Oneness to individuality—and back out again. It is cyclical. There is a scale of gradated immersion into the material plane—varying degrees of physicality. The electron and other subatomic particles, for example, are less material—more formless—than the atom; the atom is less material than the molecule; the molecule less material than the cell. By the time we ascend outward to the level of our daily experience, matter is fully formed and as dense as it gets.
“Our individuated scale is the densest of all—the apotheosis of matter; conversely you can say we are the nadir of spirit. At the same time, we are in a middle range of dimensionality. If we ascend the scale up and outwardly beyond ourselves—to the planets, stars, and galaxies, the essence thins out and begins to return toward formlessness—away from the dense material manifestation. By the time you get to the level of the whole known universe, form begins to vanish again altogether, into formlessness. You can literally see this when you gaze out at the night sky. The indigo blackness of outer space is the infinite face of formlessness; it is the Threshold of the Void.
“In a similar vein, the neo-platonic philosophers of the Renaissance held that ‘man is the center of creation’ dimensionally—that is, equally small and large referenced to the range of cosmic and atomic perspectives.
“Consciousness frames all this progression of density and dimensionality, ranging to the outermost and innermost thresholds of formation. It both gives form to energy and receives energy back out of form. On the human scale, we live out our incarnate lives within the densest material level. But Life is not limited to just our level; Life exists throughout all echelons—great and small—throughout all dimensions.
“Your human sciences cannot accept that galaxies are alive, for instance. But they are. Likewise, Life is intimately present in the tiniest subatomic particles. You cannot tell these forms are alive, because you cannot measure Life. At these other—greater or lesser—levels, Life is much less dense, much more spacious; it is also more timeless.”
I shake my head, concerned. “This is a bizarre theory. I’ve never heard anything like it. I’ve heard of the involution of spirit into matter, but this size thing is a whole new twist. How can you say a planet is less dense than a human being?”
“The lessening of density is not obvious to the human mind. That is why you haven’t heard of this before. But in the case of a planet or star, there are noticeable signs of different dimensionality. Planets live their lives swimming through the void of space; they float on waves of gravitational and electromagnetic flux.
“There are ethereal—electro-magical—fields in them that give accommodation to unseen life much less ‘physical’ than you and I are. The configurations of Life within a planet, star or nebula are beyond anything your scientists have yet imagined. Bear in mind that your sciences have no measuring devices or understanding for what is alive; they do not even have a definition of ‘life’.
“Suns and stars are obviously gaseous and predominantly systems of intense electromagnetic flux. They are fiery life forms that engage in vast dances of gravitational and radiatory potencies within the invisible spheres of their influence; they are clearly less ‘formal’ than our bodies.
“Galaxies are yet further away from dense physicality; they are entities comprising enormous areas of so-called ‘empty’ space—in the same way atoms and subatomic particles are. Of course, stars and galaxies and planets do have dense physical elements to them; we are in them physically, to be sure. But in their titanic, essential natures they are much emptier, much more spatial and field-oriented than we.
“Another way of saying it is that as you go upward or downward in the dimensional scale from our ‘densest’ position, the field nature of Life grows more significant and the material nature grows less influential. Matter is most significant at our ‘middle’ level.”
“Wait,” I argue. “There are plenty of people—scientists—who would point out that there is a huge amount of dense matter in a star or planet. These things have gigantic masses.”
“Yes. I’m not saying they don’t. I’m only saying they have a greater proportion of non-materiality coexisting with whatever dense mass they contain. In addition, their relationships and interactions with peers are field-based. When a given level relies, for its primary experiential existence on fields and invisible forces, more than material, that makes it less dense proportionally. Even in my own time, we are just learning about what the differences among these various levels mean to us.”
“Well, this is certainly something new to me. And it sounds pretty controversial—scientifically speaking. But regardless of whether this ‘theory’ is true or not, why is it important to consider? What good does it do us to know of this phenomenon?”
V calmly answers, “The Void lies at both ends of the spectrum of scale. It is important to know that the Void embraces all of manifestation in the duality worlds, from beginning to end, from inside to outside and, as well, from subatomic to super-cosmic. All the matter and physical structure in the universe is founded on ‘no matter’ and ‘no physical structure’—to wit, fields. This is your basis for all creation and form. And all form returns, in the end, into this state.
“You ask, ‘What good does this do you?’ It gives you presence in form; information is the transfer of formlessness into form. It is Life coming straight up from Source into the world and accelerating out through you and every other creature. This is the ‘good’ of it.”
I react, “Yes, but one might reason that if everything is built upon ‘no matter’, then nothing really matters in this world.”
“The point of ‘mattering’ lies in the cyclic nature of creation. Forms matter for a time—in time. Then they dissolve and disappear back into no form; then they return again as information. What ‘matters’ to you follows the same course.
“Meanings come and go; creation comes and goes. I would submit to you that this is important in your evolution toward consciousness because the cyclic forming and un-forming is the engine of that evolution. It is the motive force and principle behind ‘who you are’. With this in mind and recalling the grand spectrum of scale I’ve described above, consider this question: Where is the real you in all this progression?”
I stir. “Where am I in the great progression of evolution and scales of existence? What a question!” With that, I stop in my tracks, holding silence. I feel a sudden, strong need for more silence, more space to develop some comprehension. “V, I feel like taking a break from the dialogue for awhile. Do you mind? I want to sit with your last question and ponder. Where is the real me in all this?”
“I do not mind. This is your prerogative. In any case, for me it will be no time at all, eh?”
I decide to take several days away from writing. Finally, when the muses begin to move me, I return to the dialogue. “I’m back now, V. Though I’m not sure I’ve reached any conclusions. But the space felt good.”
“What have you experienced?” she responds immediately.
“You asked, ‘where I am in the grand progression of evolution.’ There seems to be some fundamental issue here: First, am I tiny or am I large? Or am I both at once—or perhaps neither? Am I infinite?
“Am I a small individual, caught in the middle of an infinite spread of creation—a cog in the wheel of Samsara, as the yogis might put it? Am I a tiny speck on a tiny planet in an inconsequential corner of the galaxy, as modern science would have it? Or am I the whole of all creation, with its infinite points of awareness, piercing down through this little window that I call ‘me’?
“Often I have concluded that I’m nothing more than a separate little being, detached from the whole. Yet at other times I’ve been filled with awe at my connectedness with everything. I’m partially aware of being a part of the whole. That being said, however, I innately know that neither answer is really complete. All I know, I guess, is that I’m incomplete.”
“What do you mean, you’re ‘incomplete’? I’m sensing you’re about to have a revelation.” V inquires.
“There’s something about being an individual—with the awareness of the greater consciousness—that adds up to more than the sum of the parts, I guess. Of course, it’s absurd to think that there’s something more than the totality of the Cosmos.”
V interrupts, “It’s not absurd at all. That’s what the evolution of consciousness is all about.”
“Really? How so?”
“Evolution is the growth of knowing, the expansion of awareness. Adding your perspective—and that of all individuated creatures—to the already existing whole, creates a greater whole. So, tell me more of your perspective—and we will add to the whole, here and now.”
I pause and reflect, nodding. “Well, I’m an individual; and I’m one who knows there’s a greater wholeness living within me, living part of its consciousness through me and beyond me. But how can the ‘whole’ be a ‘part’? Or am I like a hologram?”
“That’s a very interesting question,” V responds. “I would say, in your current awareness, you are neither part nor whole, really. The universal consciousness is indeed in you. The greater sense of that for any human individual, however, is being intentionally blocked. That is what allows ego and mind to believe they are independent and on their own. In fact ego-mind was created for the purpose of blockage.”
“What?” I question. “The ‘purpose’ of ego is blockage?”
“Of course,” she replies. “And it has been highly successful. We can all see that. And yet you are aware that you are more; you are not just these small aspects of consciousness. There is a bourgeoning sensibility that you’ve been fooling yourselves, that you are all much more than you normally accept. You are sensing the greater field beyond the form. Here, ego comes up against a sense of its own limitations—in the context of limitless space.”
This stirs another response in me. “You know, my ego wants to say, ‘I’m being used!’ And I think that’s kind of true. This is bizarre. Ego is held ignorant of the greater whole, and that it’s just a pawn in a very big game. It is even ignorant that it was created to be a blockage to universal consciousness, as you say. I’m suddenly feeling sympathy for the poor little ego. I mean, the Cosmos has its universal purposes, and it is the source of our individuated awareness. Yet it seemingly cuts itself off from us for eons. Ego is down here on Earth, blind and in the dark.”
“This is approximately the case, yes,” V comments. “However, your perspective of ‘unfortunate ego’ is skewed by your own mind and ego; it’s the apparatus you are using to feel that discomfort. As you embrace the presence, you will see that there is no true imbalance; there is only movement within evolution—from unconscious to conscious, from limitation to wholeness. What appears to be ‘unfortunate’ and limited is really just form, individuated and particular, moving through its paces into greater expansion.”
“But ego has sentiency,” I continue. “It feels and it hurts and is lonely. Once the Cosmos generates the individual, something else comes into play. We have free will. Free will seems to generate a kind of resistance.”
“That’s interesting. What do you mean?”
“I don’t know. The thought just popped into my head—streaming! When we have free will, we seem to want to rebel immediately—to get away from Big Brother, the Cosmos, Source, whatever ‘authority’ there is.”
“I see what you’re saying. Go on.”
I ponder for a few minutes. “I even think our human free will may be the root of all separation. It feels like O might have said something like this in one of the other books, but I don’t remember. Anyway, we were given the right to go our own way, and we did. That way led us into the feeling of being isolated, alone. I guess it wasn’t Source’s fault. But surely Source knew what would happen.”
“Surely indeed,” V replies. “Source pre-exists time; it also post-exists all evolution. The full circle of time—beginning and end—is but one of the parameters Source uses to massage our existence. It knows what is—entirely. Whatever was and whatever may be are parts of that entirety.”
“Whatever ‘may’ be? That’s interesting.” I plunge ahead, “Whether it’s due to our rebellious natures or whatever, we end up feeling separated off from the Cosmos and it seems like we’re on our own, fending for ourselves against great odds. It seems to me that Source has given up a piece of its sovereignty to us in this.”
V answers with empathy, “Yes, I see your point. Source gives us free will as a mirror of itself. In so doing, a gap is generated—a void if you will. That can look like separation. Freedom means independence; that, in turn, can feel like estrangement. Now, in my species, it has become our path to realign that independence with the overarching, shared consciousness. We have called this process ‘appreciation’, as you know.”
I smile and nod. “Ah, that’s sweet. That’s what appreciation is all about, I guess—bringing our freedom back into alignment with the whole. I’m seeing it in a whole new way now.”
I continue, “I have often felt that the soul doesn’t really know what we incarnated people are going through—all the pain and struggle and ignorance, the sense of isolation. I don’t see how the can soul truly know what isolation and ignorance feel like. I have even blamed the soul. Now I realize it’s Source itself that generated all that. It allows us to create all the separation!”
V says solemnly, “Now you’re getting close to the reason for this book.”
“Am I right? Does Source really create the separation?”
“No. It’s Life that does that.”
“What are you saying? I thought Life was the great universal unifier, the home of Oneness, not separation.”
“Life does represent Oneness. However, its first earthly function is to bring forth consciousness into form. It is the ‘one’ who becomes aware of the potentiality of ‘many-ness’. As O told you, awareness is the first separator; it generates diversity and differentiation. It identifies the ‘other’ as apart from itself, as object and subject. That is what gives humanity its desire to rebel—as part of free will—and its aspiration to be more.
“Life is the expression of Source, the bringer of spirit and heart into energy and matter. Through the course of its entering into time and evolution—and the animation of all forms—it brings consciousness to the brink of awareness. Then it pauses and hovers, watching and listening for signs of growth. It embraces the potentiality of a sweeping return on its investment.”
I react to this. “And that’s what bothers me. It seems rather cold to think of us creatures as ‘investments’, or some kind of experiment in matter. That’s what has perturbed me about my own soul, at times. It seems to project me out into the world to cope by myself and encounter all sorts of difficulties and conflicts. It doesn’t seem to care whether I get hurt or killed or worse.”
I sit still, wondering if it’s true that my own soul doesn’t actually care. V is silent. I listen to the silence until she finally says, “The soul and Source do care. But they care in a way that the mind and human emotions cannot fathom. This divine caring allows all sorts of challenges and growth experiences to arise. They do not create suffering, mind you, but they certainly do allow you to bring it onto yourselves!”
I interrupt, “I continually hear people, in my time, arguing that there can’t be a God, because there is so much evil and pain in the world. You’re saying Source allows these things? I guess it must, because they certainly do exist.”
V answers pensively, “Source allows free will and independent creation. Rebellious spirits of all kinds are then free to create good or evil; and they do. However, Source and soul do feel what you feel. Their sensibilities reach into the depths of your consciousness and awareness—they indeed are those depths; they are also all the surfaces as well. They want to fully, intimately, know what darkness and separation are like, what pain and distress are, what the farthest extremes of creation and destruction are like—basically, what physical incarnation is.
“Source wants, in the end, to meld together that which has been artificially-yet-intentionally, torn apart. Yes, it allows separation—not to make you suffer—but to provide you the field for challenge that helps you grow into consciousness. Crossing this field, into full awareness, is the only thing that will provide the eventual release from duality and return to Oneness.”
ⓒ 2014 Robert Lee Potter
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