Having lived through the tumultuous 60’s I can say, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that it was one of the biggest shakeups in our history. The ego mind had tossed and turned until it skewed out of shape, and the pressure cooker of disfunction popped its cork. With the advent of psychotropic drugs, we started to see the world in a different reality.  It wasn’t the same old, same old anymore. It was a time of [what-the-fuckness] and it birthed a new confidence, above and beyond the ego mind. It garnered truth in the face of deception. It bled lies that help actuate the facts laid out before us. In the past, we believed what we were told. Now we were unraveling the veil of deception with inner awareness, and heart and soul resonance. You could fool all the people all the time before then. By the 60’s, just some of us, some of the time. It was our Chrysalis bursting open.

And here we are. Back to a time when madmen can tell tales of insanity and bring us to our knees. Integrity has taken a backseat to 1% mucksuckers. The poor ego is so deluded that it will take a mountain of faerie dust to clear the poison spell it has come under. Pshaw!!!

In the light of our darkness, I thought it appropriate to remind us of why we are here in the first place. What do our souls want out of all of this, and why this way? I’ve read this Epilogue many times. It has been a balm to my worried mind. Its soothing explanation calms the frustration inside me and gives me a bright light to cast on the darkness that has taken the joy out of living. I’m throwing it out there to you, and pray that it will alleviate the pain that sits inside your belly. 

We’re here for a damn good reason. Let’s make it all worthwhile.

Why Souls Come to Earth

“O, I’ve recently been reading about a theory that the Earth is like a training ground for souls. I have a question for you.”

Shoot.

“Hey, you’re picking up the lingo, aren’t you. According to this theory, we proceed through many incarnations, from the beginning as young souls, to an end-point as old ones.”

Indeed it is so.

“They say we have a hundred or so lifetimes on this planet, in which we gradually gather a full range of practical life experiences. Finally, we graduate out of the system and move on to something else. Well, when I thought about what I was reading, I began to have some questions about the future you’ve been describing.”

This is more than a theory to me. I am living it. I know the reasons we’re here.

“So, what are those reasons?” (more…)

It seems to me that our greatest challenge in life is the discovery of who or what is the true self. The True Self, the essence that lies beneath our façade, our story, our personality. It is that which ignites and expands with all our experiences.

Most, if not all religions, want to separate our physical being from the ‘Divine’ energy that we think is God. I’m starting to feel different about that notion. I’m beginning to feel as if there is no separation. If there is a Divine Essence within us then we are truly one with that Essence, the Soul, the Godhead. Perhaps that thing that animates us, which is Pure Consciousness, is the blood that flows through all the animations of physical existence. We would then be nothing more than the atoms of the All, and our singular experiences are really the All’s experience. The raindrop falling into the ocean becomes the ocean, even knowing it is still a raindrop. Its oneness with the ocean is an enhancement of its singularity, not a separate thing. For there is no separation, even when it was floating solo above the great sea. (more…)

Now that the political scene has erupted in chaos and the parties have found discord on both sides of the aisle, it’s clear that The Great Storm has fully come ashore and moved into full battle mode. More than ever, the dysfunctional Ego has donned its armor and made ready for a monumental last-ditch effort to own the day. The problem here is that people are so wrapped up in their pain bodies they would grab at any alternative to save their lives from the pain. No thinking behind these decisions, just gut wrenching [S.O.S.] calls. Finally those in power see that the seat of governance is not a club for the élite, but a body of service for the people. In their struggle to right a sinking ship they are using the least effective tool to manage this calamity, their ego. With that said, I’d like to share something Robert sent to me from one of Eckhart Tolle’s talks. It perfectly describes the unconscious relationship we have with ego and how we can awaken to a more constructive one.

When My Soul Dreams with Buddha

 

Question: Is it possible to have a friendship with the ego? Or a friendship between the false “I” and the real “I”?

 ET: The ego, in the way I use the term, isn’t really the ego if you recognize it. In other words, if the ego is operating in you, you won’t even know it. Then it really is the ego. So, ego implies that you are not aware of it. Those people who have the biggest egos don’t even know what ego is and are not interested in learning about ego, and certainly wouldn’t think of themselves as having a big ego. They simply cannot recognize the ego as the ego.

But the moment you recognize the ego, it’s not really the ego anymore. It can be an old behavior pattern or a thought pattern that can still operate. For example, you may find yourself name-dropping. You know somebody famous and so you say to the person next to you, “Okay, I’ll have to call the Dalai Lama in a minute. He is expecting my call.” And, at that moment, you may realize that’s actually a lie. At that moment, of course, you’ve recognized the ego as wanting to be somebody and to be recognized. And at that moment, you have become present, so it’s not the ego anymore. (more…)

It is a new day. “Hi, V. Listening to a speaker this morning I had a small revelation. Perhaps you could help me elaborate on it.”

“I’ll be interested to hear what it is.”

“Well, it’s fairly unformed, but I’d like to try talking it through. The speaker was mentioning ‘outward gratification’. The words made me stop and notice. I sensed them as a kind of oxymoron; ‘outward’ seemed the opposite direction from gratification. Satisfaction, fulfillment—whatever—is more an inward function. In addition, this seems to be part of the confusion we have between doing and being.”

She asks, “Explain that last point a little more.”

“Doing’ is outward and ‘being’ is inward. Ego tries to maintain itself through doing things and having things. The soul, by contrast, places being first and knows that all else comes as a result of that—that all action and creation of forms derives from presence. Ego will never be satisfied for long. What it ‘does’ doesn’t last, if it has no traction in being; forms come and go. When ego is looking for fulfillment in forms, it will inevitably be disappointed. That’s what I would call ‘looking outside for gratification’.”

V answers, “I agree, basically. However, our being does encompass everything—inner and outer. The soul desires both outward, form experience and inward, formless realization. Though you didn’t say it this way, you implied the ego’s actual fear of the inner experience. It does not want to be brought into contact with the soul’s world.”

“Why would that be?” I interrupt. “Why can’t the ego get along with the soul?”

“Hah, a very good question. It has to do with fear, of course, and delusion. The ego is not comfortable with its own existence; it senses it is at great risk in the whole process of awakening. Inner depth of being frightens it intensely. It wants to stay on the surface of experience, manipulating the past and the future mental constructs. They have no depth; they only spread thinly out onto the veneer of time. It knows that the living moment is a ‘dangerous’ portal into the inner reaches of authentic being, where it might just be extinguished. Ego has an investment in staying superficial and not being authentic.”

“OK. I get that, but why can’t ego be retrained to accept authenticity and reality—and depth?”

“It can be. But what happens in that training is that the ego eventually becomes so transparent as not to exist anymore. It dissolves into the soul presence. To the ego, that looks like death, not just transparency.”

“Ah, back to my favorite subject—finding death!” I suddenly wonder, “Excuse me, but what good would ego even be if it were transparent? What would a transparent ego be like? What would it do?” (more…)

Whether or not you are following the marriage debate in the Supreme Court now it is interesting to see how the masculine energy has a specific agenda toward the idea of same-sex marriage and the female energy is more malleable to the concept of love between partners, and is not confused by the label that is so feared, marriage. The soul of our Constitution is crying for the lack of clarity we are expressing to its words. We are interpreting its concepts through fear and loathing. The Defense of Marriage Act and the right to Equal Rights as a human being, these are constructs of the Draconian CEOs of the human race. This holding on of old fears is the ego’s brilliant device for keeping us blind and bound. Ego is the task master of our plight here on earth, and It [Ego] is relentless in retaining its power. We could, of course, rise above this lower ego life and, like a good competitor, volley back and forth in a game of immense enjoyment. Since It is not going away, anytime soon, we could allow our egos to exist within our awakened self and lift it to our Soul’s desire for enlightened identity. 

The following is an excerpt from Letters from 500 – AMEN. The face of Ego, the need for Vigilance and the mis-understanding of Discipline and its divisive nature.

“I’ve observed enough of the way ego performs by now, to know that it takes much vigilance for you humans to slip out of its grasp. I did not mean ‘vigilance’ as a pun,” you laugh softly and stare into my eyes.

“You can look at this ego problem as a ‘battle’ if you want, or you can ‘play’ with it, like a game of hide-and-seek. Either way it’s quite a challenge, I’ll admit. My unintentional ‘vigilant’ pun, of course, reveals a truth behind the human dilemma. Basically, it’s a reminder of the need to be alert and watchful of your individual evolution. Your persona is gradually being unmasked.

“Yet the ego knows all your secrets. It flows along with your consciousness everywhere you go; sometimes it seems to sleep, sometimes it jumps into an opportunity to ‘defend’ you. Your human insecurities—not trusting the unknown—leave you vulnerable, available to be defended. When you feel uncomfortable, stressed or lonely, for example, ego looks around and sees a chance to help you escape and separate your mind from the moment. It wants you to keep relying on it, rather than just accepting ‘what is’. It offers you a distancing mechanism.” (more…)