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I’ve had some difficulty over the last few days with anxiety or restlessness or some energy malfunction. With Mercury in retrograde and a giant full moon in eclipse, there are many reasons I’ve conjured up to explain this discomfort. It was pretty intense and even to the point of a nerve explosion. Having an empathic nature doesn’t help the situation much and renders me pretty helpless whenever this kind of thing arises. I suck in energy, good and bad, like it’s going out of style. I know that  there are exercises to clear my Auric field, but I was so down today that I was beyond thinking about using them. I just kind of wallowed in a sea of fear. I was going to use the word despair at first and then realized that it was fear that overcame me. This was all too overwhelming and I was at some kind of brink.

Then it happened. We are sitting at breakfast in a local Vermont eatery, in an out-of-the-way Vermont town. I started to sink deeper and deeper into this malaise. And then I overheard a woman at the next table telling a tale of woe to her friend. Even though they had been conversing the entire time it was at this exact moment in her story that crescendoed up to hearing level and caught my attention. Even though we are still talking it seemed that my voice lowered and this woman’s voice raised up. At once I felt an air of ease come over me, for suddenly my sad tale had the wind knocked out of its sail. I no longer felt that tragic element that chained me to fear and anxiety. It was gone in a heartbeat. All at once this feeling of gratitude embraced me. Like a thick liquid, it encircled my heart and ballooned outward. The usual tears started welling up and I realized that the universe has a remedy for everything. You just have to pay attention. Most of us don’t pay attention to small things, that come and go on the tip of a faerie’s wing. But there it was, in plain sight. A portal had opened and it appeared. One shining moment, and then gone. Makes you wonder doesn’t it? What else are we missing? It was a good breakfast.

“Now, I must ask again, how does your ‘project’ relate to all this? Is the project something you want to ‘get done’? Will you explain what you want us to do?”

“This question links back to your original one, about what I had ‘in mind’ for a structure of the project. What I have ‘in mind’ is only what is passing through my mind from deeper presence in any given moment. I sense that passage at the same moment you do. It is always fresh and alive. Such is the way of presence. I cannot predict what will be coming through my mind before it comes. To try to do so would take the vitality out of it. This is the problem of any examination of the future, I might add. The future, to be useful, must always be held in the moment of presence. Vitality—Life with a ‘V’, if you will—is key to any creation and presentation.”

I react. “The Letters from 500 were coming from the future, right? Does that mean they were taking vitality out of the moment?”

“Orange’s books speak of the future, yes, as we are all aware. However, the essence of the moment is always present in them. There is no subtraction from presence in their contemplation of what is evolving for your species. The future in these letters is metaphorical for what is within you all in the Now.”

I admit, “I have always struggled with the idea of ‘the future’ in those books and how it relates to the Now. Many wise teachers have said that only Now exists and the future and past are not real. I know O has explained it many times. And now you have as well. But I still don’t really know what to think.”

V answers with empathy, “The future is only a thought, a way for your mind to understand a set of impressions. The importance of the messages can only be received in the moment. And the essence is timeless. But the descriptions and explanations enter into time—just as you are taking time right now to type these words. Words and explanations are all metaphors. Letters are metaphors. The future is a metaphor for the timeless evolution of your awareness. In the end, it is a paradox. If paradox is troublesome for you, then take a look at that. True paradox, even if it makes you struggle at first, is liberating in the end. It is all good. (more…)