I’ve lost my mind. It’s spinning out of control. Which way, what way! Our individuation cries for help, but help is nothing but a snake oil cry for commitment. And yet, beyond the chatter of senseless belonging, comes the sound of silent awareness. The void that looks so dark to our unconscious mind is but a doorway to the light that greets us upon our conscious awakening.

AS:  The soul gives you access to the universe inside; soul is both the spirit and the matter that make you; and you are it—the ultimate free agent. Ouroboros symbolizes both identity and cyclic action. This archetype provides the all-embracing key to comprehension.

Still, being human, you possess the divine gift of free will. Exercising it, humans invariably want to break free and choose to explore not being who they really are for many incarnations; such is evolution’s design. In this period, as a consequence of your incarnate nature, you repudiate your underlying reality—that is, your ‘material’ awareness hides reality from you. It is the destiny of all players in the material game. 

Now, here is the crux: Understanding ‘free will’ is the key to knowing consciousness. It is a profound, multifaceted gift. Look at what the words mean: Freedom allows you to be ‘independently sentient’. Individual will, gives you the divine power and thrust of incarnation; it enables your entrance into the game of Life. And most profoundly, it is the main artery, coming out from the heart of Oneness into your being and expression on Earth.

RP:  Hold on for a second. How can free will be all these things—especially the “key to knowing consciousness?”

AS:  Ah, good. You’re paying attention. It’s simple: First, will is the energy that carries you from spirit into the physical world. Second, the quality of freedom gives you the destiny to self-reflect and be introspective. Here are two more parts to my answer, as you might expect: 

‘Liberation’ is the ultimate goal of evolution; survival—as in ‘survival of the fittest’—is only a preliminary function. All creation seeks to survive—to ‘live beyond’ and to be, ultimately, free from limitation, both psychically and physically; evolution seeks to rise above the density into which spirit has ‘fallen’ in incarnation. Secondly, ‘will’ is the driving power behind evolution’s yearning. It is the foundation within all expression and exploration—the pure essence behind ‘desire’. Will is the ultimate creative, conscious presence.

In worldly religious terms, the Buddha taught that desire is the ‘cause of all suffering’. Divine desire—pure will—becomes corrupted during its immersion in the ‘separative’ dimensions of materiality. However, pure will is to desire as pure ‘soul’ is to persona.

The whole dilemma of human existence is ‘separation’ from the divine will and purpose. But in reality there is no separation; pure will resides forever within the heart of humanity, the heart of all creatures. The reversal of suffering is to drop corrupted desire and re-identify with the inner, essential will. This means dropping ego and ending the false separation from pure universal purpose by realizing that that essence has always existed within. It is as simple as that.

RP:  Yeah, simple—but oh so hard to do!

AS:  Humans often, mistakenly, assume free will means ‘separated independence’, and thus must diverge from Oneness. Paradoxically, it is just the opposite. Freedom brings us back—through the power of will—to the wholeness we truly are, the freedom of the Hologram.

In the great scheme of things, the fact that separation is illusion, creates tension and vibration—between the lesser and the greater will. That vibration spawns movement; movement generates volition and evolution. Evolution brings emancipation, libertation. Freedom is the space in which ‘will’ works to evolve the worlds. We gradually come to know ourselves as space, emptiness, and as the eternal moment. When the spark of awareness finally joins the flame of consciousness, we are truly born!

RP:  Well, whew! I can see that might work eventually. But let me retrace the steps: I always assumed free will was very different, like a license to contradict our shared experience, to escape authority and structure—to be me, not tethered to everyone else—or to the whole.

AS:  Yes. It does start out that way. But what eventually happens, through evolution and karma—through trial and error, embodied experimentation—is that the underlying principles of truth and instinct naturally pull our awareness back into the matrix of universality. It is a gradual ‘aligning with wholeness’ by means of mutually understood freedom. Wholeness is ultimately the only place there is to go.

© 2021 Robert Lee Potter

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[This montage image was produced with a series of photos taken with an iPhone while imagining nothing and beginning with no idea for the outcome. It was spontaneous combustion, through the sheer joy of experimentation and exploration. A photographic doodle of sorts.]

The world of form is enlivened by our senses, without which we would have no response to life. Those senses spark emotions inside us that play with the mind and move us to communicate responses. We are the experience of our perceptions.

With all the shuttering-in we’re a part of now I thought it would be nice to post back our “Journey to 500.” A guided meditation through time, it can be a salve and a calming for our jittered state. So put on the headphones, find a gazing point and get ready for your flight into the future of your mind, your body and your soul.


Absorbed in deep contemplation, down beyond the chatter of life, I find that space where silence reigns and darkness turns to light. Where peace moves in, on golden threads, caressing my numinous heart. The current of multi-dimensions rushes through, dancing eternity’s infinite beat. I’m lost, away from the world I’ve known, and rapt in the newness of the world I’ve been born out of, from the beginning of time. Where time never exists.

And then a voice peeks through, with a hushed whisper of recognition. Not a sound it makes, but a silent nod of familiarity. It speaks in realizations, and I can understand every meaning, though those meanings come with no words, it’s knowing just the same. It plays with my heart, and the strings pluck magic from the air. I am complete in this silent conversation. All manner of things unfold before me. It is beyond awe. For awe has never felt a thing like this.


Forty-seven years ago I started down the road of meditation practice. It has taken me on many journeys and has saved me from disillusionment, depression, anxiety, and the like. It has been a close friend, especially in those times of need, but most certainly in all times. One of the benefits of meditation, as teachers will tell you, is the place of peace that it can immerse you in. Though a quieted mind is one of the benefits of this peace there also arises a voice out of the silence that has no sound and no thought. It is an intuitive connection to the higher essence of you, that has animated the physical being of YOU. As we are now, this essence sits behind a veil of unknowing. This unknowing keeps the physical and mental constructs of your being from seeing the truth behind the veil. Meditation can lift that veil and introduce you to the Source that animates you and knows all that is. Of course, there are many teachings and practices that are part of the cornerstone of this connection with Source, but with some gentle love applied to yourself and the information given below, we can start the journey of removing the illusion of life and fulfill our Soul’s dream of immersion into the reality of Source. Let’s all start to have a conversation with our All-Self. 

Robert’s Conversation with All-Self #33 – 05/15/19

Space for Healing

RP: Good afternoon, AS. It’s comforting to know that you are present at any time I want to contact you. In fact, I am motivated to have these conversations largely as a form of comfort for me—at least today. I’m feeling rather fragile right now. In part, it has to do with my credit card being hacked, having to deal with a bunch of fraudulent charges, and all the complications that go with that. In any case, thank you for being there.

AS: Wouldn’t you be disappointed if I was totally silent all of a sudden—but no. … just ‘messing’ with you, as they say. I’m happy to be here with you—any time. Bear in mind that for many of your compatriot humans there is no recourse such as you have. They do not know they could have access to their own soul. It is a sad thing. You are blessed, friend, to have come to this awareness and connection. I am blessed by this connection as well.

RP: Wow. I never thought about people in general not having access to their own souls. Is that just because they don’t know and haven’t tried?

AS: Yes. There is a lot of disbelief out there, along with all the ‘beliefs’ people have. In fact, the two are intimate twins. If you place your mind in the hands of a belief system, you immediately take on the spectrum of everything opposite to it. In the thrall of any belief, you are also subject to doubt and fear—to wit, that the contrary condition may exist. Belief is designed—by the mind—to counter disbelief.

And so, there is ‘no soul’ for many individual minds in the world today. Science generally disallows its existence. Philosophies and religions do not offer much solace either. For many of them, the soul is a remote or ephemeral ghost that plays no active role in their lives; it comes to account only at the time of death, if that. And Buddhists take any expression of ‘self’ or soul as a mere temporary assemblage of memories and impressions upon the surface of living.

There is much misunderstanding about the soul. You have studied this subject a great deal and I’m sure you know what I’m telling you. For the vast majority of humans, ‘soul’ is nothing much more than a word, like ‘god’ or ‘spirit’. It does not carry the sense of a living identity that can participate, say, in a dialogue. It is often seen as just a quality of being that may provoke some small degree of curiosity, but it does not move the person to investigate within himself or herself.

RP: Well, that is indeed a sad situation. Why am I so privileged to have this special relationship with you? Am I just lucky? Or, in my more pessimistic attitude, am I just deluded to think I have you talking to me? I may just be volleying words back and forth in my mind. (more…)